Today I lied to my boyfriend and told him that I wouldn't be able to see him for over two weeks. The reason is because I don't want him to see how fat i've gotten and I'm planning on fasting for the next two weeks. This is not the first time I've done this. I feel atrocious but I know I'll do it again the next time I binge. I crave these weeks when I fast. Not even so much as a glass of water. But when I eat at the end of those weeks It all comes crashing down and I feel disgusting. Is it really worth it? . It is worth it. Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.